A., C.'s ex-girlfriend and your friend, asked you to mediate between her and C. (her ex-boyfriend). You told me that C. had told you that he didn't want to get back together with A. and that he didn't want you to give him any messages from her. Normally, I'd say that it must be very hard to choose whose side you're going to be on when two of your friends, who used to be a couple, break up. Their mutual friends all out of sudden were between a rock and a hard place.
When A. saw through you and called you out on your shit, you ended your friendship (told her that you weren't friends anymore). A. had confronted you with her assumption that you and C. were in a relationship or having an affair or that you want something from him. You were indignant or you feigned indignation at how she could allege such a thing to you. You called her allegations preposterous. In my opinion, you couldn't be friends with A. any longer because she had seen through you (she had discovered the truth). A. knew that you were lying to her and you knew it too. Instead of being honest to her and to yourself and instead of behaving maturely and admitting that you had feelings for her ex-boyfriend C. you pretended to be shocked that she could implicitly blame you for being partly responsible for their breakup. You acted as if A.'s reproaches were completely unfair and unjustified. The truth is you wanted A. out of the way because you wanted C. to be single since you wanted to be with him.
I remember that I had asked you "do or did you have an affair with him (C.)?" during one of our walks in the woods when you were recounting the whole situation with A. You denied it. I then asked you "ok, but do you want something from him?". You didn't say anything and you stared at the ground. (Why does this sound so familiar?) I asked you again and you admitted that you indeed were interested in him. Back then you were at least honest to me although it was very difficult for you to let the truth leave your tongue and your lips.
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